Our Mother’s Palace: A Solitary Conversion Meditation
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Part 1: Homecoming
Your Mother, the Queen, is summoning you, her son/daughter/child, to Her court.
For a long time, you did not know you were royalty. Perhaps you believed you were nothing but an unimportant, insignificant speck of dust in a world that cares not for you. Perhaps you thought that your birth was an accident, that you were merely bacteria with consciousness. Perhaps you were afraid to acknowledge the truth: that you possess within you a jewel of divinity, and that you were destined for much greater things. Perhaps you were even afraid of your Mother, afraid She would be too disgusted by your mistakes, your shortcomings, to accept you into Her arms.
No matter. Now you know the truth. And you have been away from home for far too long.
It is time for you to enter Ekklesia, the glistening palace at the centre of the realm of the Empress of the Universe. The gathering place of all of those who have accepted Dea as their Mother, their God, their Source. You approach the glistening palace of your Mother. You turn your head to look up to the sky, and you see a huge rainbow, brighter and more beautiful than any you’ve ever seen on Earth. There is not a cloud to be seen. The sun in its gentle heat falls down on your shoulders and face, yet your skin does not burn. Instead, its rays tickle your nose and cheeks. You laugh to yourself.
You look down, and notice what you are wearing. Beautiful raiment, created by light, and you feel beautiful, radiant, as you should feel always. You place your hands atop your head, and feel a delicate crown atop it. You, like all of your siblings, are royalty, and what’s more: you are, in essence, one with God, who is the greatest Queen of all.
The palace is getting closer, and you can now make out your siblings, waiting outside for you. They wave, jump up and down, cheer. Suddenly, you realise you know all of these people. You know their names in every incarnation, you understand their divine qualities, and you feel such abundant love for each and every one of them.
You can make out the more intricate details of the palace now. You notice it has seven great towers, each one topped with an image of one of the seven Janati; your eldest siblings, who are direct streams of Dea Herself. You notice how the palace, like your clothing, seems to literally be made of light: the same light of the sun, of the rainbow.
You are now right outside the castle, and your siblings throw petals at your feet. “Welcome home!” they cheer, and they hug you, kiss your cheeks, take your hands and hold them to their hearts. They are overjoyed to see you are joining them at Dea’s court.
Finally, you take a deep breath, and you enter the palace. You walk down a hallway, and find yourself in a throne room. The lovely scent of incense perfumes the air, and beautiful music kisses your ears. You take a moment to take everything in. This is your home, your birthright, your destiny.
Look around the throne room. Note the beautiful decorations. Pay attention to the smells, the sounds, the sights around you. Let yourself be happy. Revel in this moment, and promise yourself you will remember it whenever you feel lost.
You look up, and you finally see her. Dea, God, the Creator of the Universe, atop a throne of sunlight, the likeness of the moon at her feet. She wears a stunning jewelled crown representing Her seven Janatic Streams. She is clothed in a garment of stars. Her warm smile fills you with so much emotion. Look in to Her sparkling eyes, and believe that She is your Origin. No matter how wary, useless, hopeless you sometimes feel, the figure before you is GOD, and She birthed you in to existence through an overflowing of Her perfect love. In Her countenance, you can see the love She feels for all of Creation.
She descends from Her throne. She holds out Her arms to you, and You run in to them. She laughs. Are you laughing or crying with joy? Maybe a combination of both? In Her embrace, you feel free from the burdens of the world. You feel like, through Her, you can conquer any evil. And you can.
“Welcome home,” she whispers.
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